I went back to OA last night for the first time in a while. I tried a year or so ago, but I wasn't clicking with the group and I had a hard time getting to the meeting because of child care, schedules, etc. Now, however, I need it more than ever and our location has changed. I was able to attend the meeting location/time I used to go to when I was successful several years ago. The faces have changed, but I had a good feeling and I enjoyed the familiar surroundings. I am glad I went and I will attended regularly. I have a big sense of relief today. I think it's relief that I'm addressing the issue, admiting I need help, and getting back to step 1. Somehow when DH came along, I felt "cured." Ta-da! Mission accomplished; great guy, good life, marriage, and the whole 9 yards. I had successfully lost a lot of weight, and I was on a regular exercise program. End of the movie, right? Happily into the sunset? (Is anybody else smiling along, recognizing this?) Anyway, as wonderful as DH is, my life is out of control in terms of my emotions and how I am conducting myself. Job change, family changes, house change, and BOOM! I'm right back in the thick of it.
But, I am, again, relieved to be back to the basics and I have a sense of peace today that has been missing for a long, long time.
