ugh the single life... lol
I\'m having a hard time with this concept but I also wanted to say that I think relationships are an addition and a privilege and not a necessity.  What I mean is that the most important thing is that we\'re comfortable with ourselves and any loving relationship should be an enhancement to this and not the reason why we\'re comfortable.  Like not being alone because of just fear of being alone.  Does that make sense?  I have to remind myself of this all the time because truth be told I still really miss my ex and I still feel like I\'m in this limbo state of \'is there hope for us\' or \'ok, let\'s pick up and move on\'.  I think I miss him so much because he was so much more than just a boyfriend, he was a friend and our experiences together were so wonderful and we seemed, for the most part, to be on the same path of interests and what we wanted out of life.  Maybe we were too similar... I don\'t know.

Anyway, I\'m an obsessive person so of course, even a month later, I have to continue hashing out all the confusion in my head.  I\'m really OK by myself.  I enjoy being by myself but I also enjoy being with him in addition to being with myself.  blah blah.  (this is where I start talking in circles and driving myself crazy).  The main reason why I\'m writing this is because on Monday night I saw him and we talked for a good deal of time and I was right back where I started just wanting to reach out and say what are we doing?  We belong together.  But who am I to say who belongs with who.  I have this romantic idealist notion that he\'s \'the one\' and that there is only \'just one\' (insert matrix music) but realistically I know that\'s not true - he\'s the only one of HIM but not the only one that I could spend the rest of my life with, KWIM?  

Anyway(Part II), I did the dumb thing of all dumb things this morning and called him.  I got his voice mail and damned to the caller IDs of the world because I HAD to leave a message and of course I had NO REASON to call him, I couldn\'t even think of one tiny insignificant reason to say why I called him.  I thought pretty quickly on the spot too - \'thought I saw you, or thought I saw your car, or thought I might have seen your sock in the road\' but nothing came to mind so I just blabbered.  ugh.  

I wanted to see what the Diva\'s had to say on dating and ex\'s and this crazy life of being back out in the single world.

Amen!    
It\'s a strange world sometimes... I agree with the cuddling thing.  I get very needy sometimes where I just want to turn to someone and say take care of me, take all the stress off me... fix me, etc.  And like you other times I\'m proud to be doing things on my own.