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It's ironic for me to want to "check in" because it isn't how I usually am, but today I am really feeling the need to just see how you all are doing and share what's on my mind too.

DH is out of town through Sunday, so I'm feeling kind of sad about that and know the house is going to feel a little bit empty.  DD is sad about it too.  Work has been up and down this week, with a lot of high emotions basically since March.  I've got that treadmill feeling where all I want to do is find some space to feel caught up and rested, both physically and emotionally.  I feel like I'm constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop.  I wanted to get a lot done this week in terms of grading and planning, and I've gotten pulled into other things (important, worthy things) that have left me feeling like my time has evaporated.  Body image wise, I can't tell if I've truly gained a few pounds or if it's distortion in my brain, and honestly I don't know which would be worse.    Ballet has been really hard for me mentally lately, and I'm trying to figure out if it's me or one of my teachers, or some of each. 

Anyway, that's me in a very small nutshell.  How are you girls doing?  Good stuff to report out?    Troubles?  :grouphug:

I can relate to that a lot. Skyrocketing fuel prices are affecting our business, and have me nervous about the future. Everyone from individual customers to our big trucker fleet customers want their vehicles serviced, since a tuned engine gets better gas mpg, but no one wants to pay the extra $ when they are already feeling the pinch everywhere from the gas station to the grocery store. Fuel surcharges and higher costs are forcing us to raise our prices at a time when it is already difficult to collect on accounts receivable...

Things are very hectic on the home front too. 14 year old DS's LAX schedule is enough to drive any parent nuts. Then, with his graduation from middle school next month, we are trying to prepare for his school trip to Washington DC, the big dance tonight, and a number of other events. I think 8 year old DS is feeling put-off by all of the attention to his brother, and has been throwing tantrums, making it even more difficult to stay on schedule.

On the personal front, I finally saw the Rheumatologist this week. I have a nodule on my Thyroid. So, today, in the midst of everything else, I have to go to the hospital to have a ton of blood-work, and a sonogram of my Thyroid. He also sent to a Dermatologist yesterday to have a cyst by my ear checked. I wound up having a painful cortisone injection in my face, as well as 2 skin tags near my eye burned off with a laser - OUCH!!!! Then had to rush straight over to DS's LAX game with no makeup on, and 3 huge irritated spots on my face!

Those are most of the major going's on for me right now!

I hope you and your DD have a nice weekend, despite missing your DH.  :hug:

I like checking in - I'm supposed to be writing all of this stuff out in my journal... to keep me sane but instead I put it off to do basically nothing but 'stress'

I'm really having a hard time not comparing myself to others and I'd really like that to be eliminated in my life - if not completely then at least enough so I can function without feeling so totally crazy inside, KWIM?

Body image for me is at an all time low but it's because I haven't been exercising as much as I need to and I'm falling victim to fast unhealthy meals so I'm hoping to turn that around.  I just have to work a lot harder than I did when I was younger and I haven't quite made that transition yet.  Change is never easy for me, ha!

Life with DD is super - we're having a lot of fun and she seems to be doing great with everything.  She just started competitive soccer so Jenn - I can relate to the hectic schedule.  I permanently live with a cooler, chairs and soccer ball in my car.  DD is committed to making a hundred touches with her soccer ball a day so I've had to pretty much bubble wrap my house ;)

Work is great, I really love what I do but there are some conflicts that just never seem to be resolved and it's so passive aggressive.  I oscillate all the time between ignoring, accepting, engaging or trying to 'fix' things.  I never really know when to just give up or if I should give up at all.

Not a whole lot is going on for me either.  Just getting lots of work done around the house. We worked on our garden today, and we are going to grill dinner out back in a bit.

I really, really have that sour feeling in my stomach every Sunday about having to return to work on Monday morning.  I really don't think my current job is a good fit.  That's my biggest issue I think.

I really think I would be happy in a position with a lot less responsibility, but I know that is going to mean a huge pay cut.

I dunno.........I did finally join the library too! Loving that!  I guess I have to focus more on my "weekends and evenings off" and try not to think about work so much......

Alli - I know that Sunday night stomach feeling.  I've had it before too, in a different time in my teaching career.  For me it really did mean it was time for a change.  I hope you can find what you need to do. :hug:

Good stuff:  Hubby and I went to Cancun last week for vacation and had a really relaxing time.  It was very  :love:.

Not-so-good stuff:  After 39 years of marriage my mom has decided she wants a divorce.  My dad does not feel the same way.  This has been devastating for both of them as well as my siblings and me.   :sad:

It's a very emotional time for me right now.

Oh Heather....:hug: :(

Oh Heather, I am so sorry. I can only imagine how hard, and how much of a shock that must be for you all.   :hug: :heart: